Our Inner Writing Critic
A friend recently gifted me with Dani Shapiro’s book, Still Writing: The Perils and Pleasures of a Creative Life.
The writer in me simply loves this book. The other evening, I was reading the section called “Inner Censor”, and I knew I had to talk about this with kids. Dani Shapiro writes:
“Under the guise of being helpful, or honest, my censor is like a guided missile aiming at every nook and cranny where I am at my weakest and most vulnerable. She will stoop and connive. All she wants to do is stop me from entering that sacred space from which the work springs. She is at her most insidious when I am the beginning, because she knows that once I have begun, she will lose her power over me.”
( from Still Writing, page 15)
The next day, I spoke to a class of 6th graders about our inner writing critic. First, I described my own inner writing critic. See, my critic sounds just like me, and she looks just like me, too… except she’s making this face:
Then, the 6th graders gave a face and personality to their own inner writing critics.
Next, I told the kids that when I’m writing, I often hear my inner critic’s voice in my head. She says things like, “That’s a really dumb beginning” or “Nobody cares about that” or “People are sick of reading about your kids, Dana” or “Ha! You don’t know enough about teaching to write a book! Who would buy it?”. As I spoke, I looked around at the kids’ faces, nodding in agreement. Yep, they hear that voice, too.
Before I read Dani Shapiro’s book, the voice of my critic would make me erase, hit the backspace key, hit the “x” to close out of my electronic notebook, or crumple up my paper. I would start over, try again. I used to think that voice was me.
Now I know different. I know that all writers hear that voice. All of us. Here was my message to the 6th graders: All writers have an inner critic. Acknowledge yours. And KEEP WRITING.
I told the kids that sometimes I acknowledge my inner writing critic by thinking to myself, “That’s just my inner critic talking.” Or sometimes, I’ll say out loud, “Well, helllllllo there, critic!” in my silliest voice. (I try not to do that when I’m writing in a public coffee shop.) Then – and here’s the most important part – I keep writing. I put pencil to paper or fingers to keyboard, and I write over the noise of my inner critic. Eventually, she quiets down and I get my words on the paper.
After the minilesson, Krystina knew just what she would do the next time she heard that voice.
Omar wrote about the influence of his peers on his inner writing critic
I love Dani Shapiro’s book, and I really enjoyed having this conversation with kids. My hope is they will remember that every writer in the world hears that voice, and I hope thay they will keep writing.